Monday, August 31, 2009

Burp cloths and anniversaries

So im already very ancy and still have just over a week to go until my next doctors appointment. I wanted to do a craft and selected something for the baby. I selected all the fabric online and sent nick out to look for it. The phone rang multiple times and he got most of them and only picked one wrong fabric. I was very surprised to see how excited Nick was to help me with the project, but dont tell him i said that lol. We picked boy and girl patterns since we dont know which one it will be and made four of each pattern. So currently we have 12 completed and still have more fabric. The backside is a different print from the front side. Above is a picture of some of the different patterns.
On another, non-baby note, today is the one year anniversary of my father in laws death. I cannot believe it has been a year. If you could keep Nick's mom, sister, nick and I in your thoughts and prayers today it would be wonderful. I am sure Nick will not say much today about it but they could all use your prayers today. I wear my purple bracelet proudly to help keep awareness out there for pancreatic cancer. They need more funding and research to get rid of such a terrible deadly disease.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Lack of sleep

This past week i haven't slept well at all. Im on the couch 24/7 because the bed just isnt working for me to sleep in. Everytime i sleep on it i roll to my side or stomach which is not allowed. So the couch prevents me from doing that. Well after being on it more than a week, im over it. I never liked the couch before and now I especially dislike the couch. My neck and head is constantly sore along with my right leg constantly going to sleep from lack of movement.
I sleep for about two hours then im awake for two-three hours then back asleep. I know im complaining but i feel like everything is falling apart on me.

I am doing my job though, staying down and laying down. I think the hardest thing is actually just laying around. There are so many things i want to do and get up for but know that I cannot so im learning more patience that way. I know its best for the baby and me so I will do whatever it takes. Im being told the lack of sleep is just preparing me for the future which Im ready for.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

14 weeks and 5 days...

We had sort of an emergency ultrasound today. I have been on bedrest the last week already due to bleeding. The bleeding is still continuing and throw that in with morning sickness kicking up again as of monday and thats how you get an ultrasound. The ultrasound revealed that i have placenta previa which means the placenta is detaching from the wall. The only way for it to be healed is with bedrest. So im on for two more weeks until i have another ultrasound.

The worst part is hearing "threatened miscarriage" from my doctor. She stated that it may or may not happen. Anytime there is bleeding involved its better to be aware that it could happen. Since im already so emotional these days, that just added to it. Nick and I are praying that the baby continue to grow and that this can begin to heal or reattach. She did say due to the complications that I am having that i am high risk and i will most likely deliver prematurely. A C-section is very possible at this point and she stated most people who have placenta previa have c-sections like 99% of them.

We really could use any and all prayers. I especially am a natural worrier and worry about everything and as much as i appreciate people telling me to relax it doesnt work. I mean how would you feel if you felt like something awful could happen at any moment. The unknown is very scary. By the time i go back to the dr i will have been on bedrest for 3 weeks. I cannot even imagine because ive only been on it for a week and im already going nuts! So if you ever see me around online feel free to talk to me because i guarantee i will be extremely bored!