Nolan is here!

My birth story won't copy and past so heres a short jist of the story. I went in on Wednesday night and tried 2 medications to induce labor. After 20 hours i needed a c-section. Nolan was born on February 18th at 4:53 pm. He was 7 lbs 12 oz and 19 inches long. We stayed in the hospital for three more days and he lost too much weight so we had to supplement with formula. Hes slowly getting back to birth weight and just barely passed it now and he is three weeks old. He is still wearing newborn clothes and diapers and he is more alert now during the day. His hair is strawberry blonde and in sunlight looks just pure red like mine. We will see if that stays or changes. He is now over three weeks old and we love him more than anything. Sorry for the delay but a newborn keeps me quite busy along with a new house that we are closing on the 31st of this month! Lots of new things all in one time. Im healing alright it is slow going and everything they say is true. You cant be superwoman and be expected to be 100% two or three weeks later. It takes time and dont overdo it!

Induction tonight!

Im terrified and nervous. I of course cannot wait to meet our little boy but i did not expect my doctor to only give me one choice in the matter. Im not happy about it but i have no other way around it. At 630 pm i will be admitted to the hospital because my fluids have gone from a 12 to a 4. My doctor said anything under a 5 requires that the baby come out soon. She predicts he will be here by late tomorrow at the lastest Friday morning but i really hope its tomorrow! I want quick and painless which i know is asking way too much. Thoughts and prayers are welcome!

No induction needed!

As of right now i do not need an induction unless i go a week overdue. This was excellent news. I did not want to be induced because of all of the bad things i heard about medications and etc. I also tested negative for my swab test so that is also good news so i can labor at home until its 3-4 minutes apart. His growth is still ahead as always and so far no contractions as much as im aware of at least.

I will need some intense prayers over the next few weeks. Im highly anxious about the whole process and i need to trust my body but i just cannot seem to. Im dreading the pain and everything involved with checking me. Trust me ive known all along what is involved but chose not to worry too much ahead of time. People may laugh and think oh please everyone does it. Please dont compare my body to another persons when you have no idea what its been like to go through this pregnancy with such intense pain. I really hope that someone is watching over me and blesses me with an easy delivery and labor. I just want to see him and not worry about the pain.

37 weeks!!!

Sorry for the late recap on my 36 week appointment. Baby boy is 6 lbs 11 oz!! I just cannot believe it. That places him in the 73rd percentile. The midwife did my appointment and said that i need to speak with the doctor about the size. Sometimes they consider that to be large so they induce early. Induction is not what i wanted to hear. I cannot wait to meet our baby boy but i have heard of all the effects and things that happen. I honestly wish for a c-section for multiple reasons. Many people do not understand that and even some women feel bad if they have a c-section, I on the other hand would not. I have had far too many pain problems and I am extremely concerned about what my body can handle. He is head down and just chillin. They gave us a picture of his face and he so has nicks big cheeks!!!

I cannot wait to squeeze them :) At this point in time, we are stalled on two different houses. One is about a 30 minute commute for nick to work while the other is just down the street. They are so drastically different in looks and price so that is why we are so torn. To live here where we have everything at our fingertips costs more money for location wheras the other house is further and there is basically no stores, doctors, etc. I grew up 30 minutes from everything so for me it is really no change other then i am now accustomed to having conveinances. The baby and house stress has my anxiety at an all time high but i know that in the end things will work out the way they are meant to. The big scary "swab" test i had was not so bad as they let me do it myself and was pain free just a bit awkward was all. I find out the results this week at my doctors appointment. I can honestly say i cannot believe that 3 weeks from today is my due date!!!!! Time literally has flown by for me. All of these other women in my life say it will drag and you will be wishing it was over. I have yet to feel that way at all. So for now no news is good news :)

Hospital tour, anxiety, and getting closer!!

We went to the hospital tour and of course Nick was bored because he see's that everyday. The rooms are nothing special at all and quite small but in all honesty what will i care at that moment in time. It didnt increase or decrease my anxiety. It was extra funny that my OB was sitting up there when we toured. I told the baby he better not get any ideas :)

My anxiety is at an extreme level. I had a melt down the other day. As i stated before it is not because im nervous about becoming a mommy because i have all the confidence in the world that i can do that. Im worried about the labor process, the pain, the length and the what ifs. If i hear "Women do it everyday" one more time i think i may go off. I have been in complete silence about the overwhelming anxiety i have. I have an upcoming GBS test this week as well as a growth ultrasound. Im terrified of the GBS test and i cannot really get into detail without including too much information. Sometimes it would be comforting to know that im not the only one out there who has all of these physical barriers and pain problems.

Tomorrow i only have four weeks left. I cannot believe it literally. I love feeling him kick and move around in there and the aches and pains and sleepless nights are so worth it right now. I cannot wait to meet him but he needs to stay put until February for sure. Nick is more then excited to meet his little boy. Im excited and terrified all together and just overall concerned about the day i have him. My one and only support will be Nick and it will be that way until family starts to arrive the following week. Thats all for now until my appointment on Wednesday.

Happy Holidays & Merry Christmas!!

Well Christmas is basically here and i cannot believe it. My mom arrived this past weekend and will be with us until the 2nd of january. Then i hope time slows down a bit. Were getting a huge snow storm, even for Minnesota this is a big one. Were expected to get 20+ inches by tomorrow night and saturday. Were going to be cooped up i just hope our plows stay on top of it!

I had my 32 week appt yesterday withe my Doctor's midwife. Im still measuring 2 weeks ahead and his heart beat was strong and loud and he moved around a bit from the midwife lol. Were still unsure of how the birth will go. I will be evaluated at 36 weeks to find out if its natural or a c-section. There are several notes on my chart due to the previous history with this pregnancy. People are still saying January and im sorry but please stop telling me when hes going to come. Im not even due until the middle of february and since im 2 weeks ahead, the doctor says that really doesnt mean anything. He may be a big baby or hes just laying funny everytime im being measured. However, it does not indicate that he will come that much earlier. I will take guesses on his hair color though LOL.

A little background with my hair color, my moms dad had natural red hair and it skipped a generation and went to me. My dads side of the family has some auburn but no red heads except for me. So whats the guess?? Nicks hair is brown in case people forget but when he was born and up until he was 2 he had white white blonde hair that ended up being brown now lol. So any guesses? Id love for him to have red hair but am concerned that since it skipped a generation it may do it again. So what are my chances for red hair :)

I hope everyone has a great holiday/Christmas!!! Stay safe and warm and really enjoy your time with family. I wish we could be back home with everyone but Nicks vacation is being saved for when baby boy is born. Im happy to have a piece of my family here though :)

Update & Baby Shower

I wish i had pictures but sadly our camera is broken. Were waiting for a replacement piece. It was wonderful to see friends and family come together. We wish we could have stayed longer but nicks vacation time wouldnt have allowed for it. My mom is coming up in a few weeks to stay for Christmas and I cannot wait since I feel like i only got a blip of time with her. It was very odd to say goodbye and we'll see everyone when we have our baby in our arms!!!

My Gestational Diabetes test came back normal so yay! Luckily the drink wasn't even bad at all. I think some people make more out of it then it really is. I think the quote of the day at the shower was " Your not really that big at all" LOL. After a few times i was like okay i hear ya. Of course according to my husband im huge :) I do have a picture from my cell phone at 29 weeks 1 day. We received a ton ton ton of clothes! I was expecting it but not really to this level. Some larger things were purchasing with the gift cards we received, so needless to say we have no where to walk at the moment.

On another note, we are looking at houses. With keeping this in mind, i dont get to set up a nursery :( I really want to but if were going to be moving right around when Im due then its not the best idea. We have a bassinet and other things in the house but the rest will have to move to storage until we have a house. Im hoping to find something soon but im also realistic that im 7 months pregnant and moving does not sound good to me but it would benefit all of our stuff haha.

Finally, at my last appointment i was measuring 2 weeks ahead but she said that doesnt mean anything necessarily so im trying not to get worked up. Today, im noticing my left foot is starting to swell a bit. Oh all the joys of pregnancy :) Did i mention i havent worn my wedding rings since 7 weeks! I had some issues with swelling fingers then and havent worn it since. I miss it!!! Sorry for the long update but its been awhile. I promise to get back to normal blogging.

Aches and Pains

I know that all pregnant women have them but mine have just started to roll in. My back is starting to hurt from carrying around this belly but thats alright. Sleep has been okay but not as great as it use to be. Along with getting up numerous times I also cant fall back asleep because i feel like i have mini earthquakes in my stomach which is the greatest feeling ever, even if it is at 4 am!

I am now able to see my shirt move when hes kicking which is odd but im sure the start of what i will see to come in the future. I definately dont walk fast by any means but then again I never really did. Im enjoying getting ready for the holidays and our very fast approaching trip back home for Thanksgiving.

As everything approaches so quickly it makes me extremely nervous about labor & his birth. Ive had some physical problems along the way which have been discussed with my doctor. My chances of having a c-section are back to normal so I am unsure of what will happen. Since everything that has occurred so far and Im still considered high risk, i would rather opt for the c-section because i still have underlying problems that my doctor cannot figure out until after he is born. As each day gets closer, i get more anxious then before and I know others feel this anxiety but up that by 100% and that is mine. I hope and pray everyday that i just go about the day without worrying about it but no matter what its in the back of my mind. Im hoping for the best for both of us!

No news is good news

Nothing new to report really. Im exhausted constantly! That isnt news i have felt this way pretty much the whole pregnancy. I got the H1N1 shot today. Im glad i no longer have to be irritated to get it or etc. I felt pretty unsure of the whole thing but felt pushed into it so I got it. If i never hear about it again i will be so grateful. Our little boy is more active these days. He definately moves more after I eat but i am starting to feel him at other times too. He especially likes to kick my bladder! LOL. He thinks hes a comedian i guess.

I had a great birthday other than throwing up that morning! I cant believe we will be home in a few weeks and its going to go by so fast cause we will only be home for like 3 or 4 days. Ive started Christmas shopping and im glad since some things i need to take home in a few weeks. My next appointment isnt until the 23rd so I have quite a bit to go yet before any more news. At that appointment i will be tested for GD so well see how that goes. Ive heard that it tastes awful but well see i guess. Ive drank worse things for other tests. Thats it for now!!

24 wk. Doctors Visit

Well it went excellent!!! We went in and had to fill out an extra paper on if i had been sick which I am so i was segregated to another part of the waiting area. It was very odd but i understand lol. The nurse was telling us how anyone who had most of the symptoms had to be examined in the quarantined area downstairs so the nurses and doctors were exhausted from running back and forth. I only have 2 of the symptoms so i got to stay upstairs.

I definately have a viral thing that just needs time even though its been two weeks. Luckily, for me the chest congestion is lifting a ton thanks to the benadryl so now she wants me to go back to the robitussin for the stuffy nose and cough. I mentioned my recent dizziness and she had asked how my ears felt and etc and said to keep an eye on that, if im dizzy still next week she needs to start me on two prescriptions. She doesnt want me to start them now because we dont know that i have an ear infection and the second thing is that the medicine will exhaust me a ton which she said i dont need since im already taking extra naps :)

The baby was measuring at 25 weeks which she said is perfect! She also listened to his heartbeat loud and strong at 150 bpm. I now have Round ligament pain on both sides but nothing that i can fix so just rest and fluids. She said she was happy to hear i feel "thumps" after i eat and by the next appointment it should be more consistant and stronger :) She said all around shes happy that hes so perfect :) It really made my day to hear hes doing so well. I didnt gain any weight at all which is perfectly fine. Everything was great other then a sick mommy but thats okay :)

Small update

I just made cupcakes the other day for a food challenge and boy did our little baby boy Love them! He was doing flips i think and his daddy attempted to feel it and still he hides from us both. I have been having crazy dreams and i know its because im pregnant and sick. That is right i still have this awful cold. I mean i take naps for two hours or more due to being sick and I hate that but obviously need the rest! My doctor's appointment is tomorrow so we will see how everything is progressing. No ultrasound this time but that is okay. Until tomorrow, see you later!

P.S. I still cannot decide which bedding to get! Ughhh lol.

Update and Vent

People drive me nuts. I have been sick over a week now and it is not fun nor is it suppose to be. But for crying out loud try being sick when your pregnant and everything is off limits to you! Ive been told to calm down and wait it out. Well lets see i am waiting it out and im not worked up about it, but just think if your carrying another human being for the first time in your life, wouldnt you worry about every medicine you put in your body? I think its only natural. Now mind you, the person who told me to calm down has no children what so ever.

With all this talk of H1N1 going around and etc, i think i had a reason to be nervous. Now i do not have a fever just major chest congestion and stuffiness. From time to time i feel a bit dizzy but i think thats from the benadryl the dr told me to take. I go for my 24 week appt. on the 28th, its just a basic appt, no ultrasound. I am feeling some movement now basically after i eat and that is it. I feel like the lack of movement is due to the problems I have had with my placenta. Our little boy likes to play hide and seek. Nick and I will both try to feel for him on the outside and he will not budge but I can feel him constantly from the inside. Since ive been sick its less movement but im guessing that he senses its time to relax for mommy!

I am very excited to be going home in a month for thanksgiving and our couples shower! My MIL and SIL were in town and we did some shopping for the little boy and definately picked out some green. I still do not understand why blue has to be the only designated boy color. Dont get me wrong i like a little bit of light blue but not everywhere i go! Most of the things i registered for i was very careful in not choosing too much blue. I guess thats my update and vent on the color blue and being sick.

Its a boy!!

We were both shocked to hear it was a boy! I think deep down I really knew becuase i have had like 80 dreams about having a boy and only 1 where it was a girl. We do have a name for him and have had it since before I was even pregnant. Its a big secret though :)~ There is still not much going on in the movement front but the doctor is not concerned. She said the previous tingling I had was the baby but i have yet to feel it again or any kicks or elbows.

In time, he will make up his mind and give a good jab to his mommy. The doctor released me to go back to Ohio for thanksgiving and my baby shower ! Wooo hoo!! this is excellent news! I cannot wait to see all of my family and nick's family too. It will be way too exciting. Since it is a boy, i am so determined that he will have red hair. If it would have been a girl i had doubts about the red hair since it skips a generation in my family. So we will see. Nick is betting on brown. We are registering on Saturday at BRU and i hope it goes well since we don't really have anything picked out except a swing! Baby is growing right where he should be. Hes a few ounces below for his age but im sure he can catch up in no time as the doctor was not concerned!

Im off for now hoping to get some homework done and then go shopping for the first time for the baby boy!

Nothing new yet..

Its about 2 weeks until my appointment and so far no really big changes. I still am having a discharge but dont worry she knew about this at my last appointment. Im just hoping its not some type of infection. One of my very very good friends is in labor as we speak, however, she lives in Illinois so were chatting via text so i know how shes doing. Im so excited for her to meet her daughter.

Everyone keeps asking, literally every day if im feeling movement. To be honest, not really. I have these moments where i feel a sort of tingling feeling but from everything i read im not sure if thats the baby or im just crazy lol. Its always around or above my belly button. From everything ive read, its suppose to be lower and once you feel it, you should feel it non stop. Well i may or may not feel it about once a day nothing consistant. So if anyone knows if thats it please let me know :)

9-9-9

So we thought we'd find out if we were having a son or a daughter but to our surprise thats a big no. We walked into the Ultrasound and she looked at my placenta and cervix and i mean really looked at that placenta which im happy about. I inquired about this being our anat. scan and she said it wasnt when we were clearly told it was. I am too early for that scan and had issues with downing two bottles of water before hand, which i actually threw up from drinking too fast and barely had any in me.

She stated she thought things looked great and that this will be the last time the whole baby will fit on one screen, AHHHH!! Heart rate was 151 bpm and they were very very active. My doctor said she was sooo happy that things are looking better. The placenta moved away from my cervix and is reattaching! She said theres a small blood clot but apparently i had it last time and it hasnt gotten bigger so no need to worry but if i experience bleeding again not to panic.

Im still considered a high risk pregnancy but bedrest is lifted!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!! Nick had the day off and took me to lunch afterwards which was my first outing and it was short but sweet. I also brought up a few concerns i have about my BP so im doing a protein test for that tomorrow and friday. As well as i was diagnosed with Pregnancy Carpal Tunnel which is why i only have the energy to type this once. She tested me and had me put my wrists in a certain position and hold it and it was extremely painful! So now i have a splint on my right hand and wrist. Im limited to a certain amt. of computer activity and driving. She said this type of carpal tunnel is very common in pregnant women because of all the extra fluid pushing on the nerves and tendons.

My next routine appt is october 7th and for sure they are determining the gender then is what my doctor said :) I go at 9 am for the ultrasound and 10 for the doctor. Thanks to everyone for all of your prayers, we still need them because we worry every day but were glad we got some good news for a change! I apologize for any texts/messages online that i havent responded to i just can barely type as it is but im trying.

Labor Day weekend *warning: tmi*

Its usually full of fun and relaxing times and here we are lol. I am glad that nick will be off tomorrow as well and then only a few days until my doctors appointment. Praying and hoping to hear good news and not bad news. Everyone keeps asking how im doing and honestly im doing the same. I am still having the same issues as before except no bright red blood, knock on wood. Sorry for those of you who are sensitive to that talk. I still am experiencing discolored discharge (sorry TMI) but its happening regardless. This is my third week on bedrest and im hoping for a 10 min car ride today as part of my 30 minutes up a day. I cannot wait to get fresh air!

If i start not feeling well back in i go. Im more nervous about the walk to the car because im not walking that much at all. Being on bedrest is best for me and the baby but really is starting to take a toll on both my body and mind. I can barely walk without feeling dizzy and im constantly upset about not being able to do much or just getting frustrated because i cannot do anything. The next time i update will be on Weds for the big doctors appointment, wish us luck and prayers :)

Lack of sleep

This past week i haven't slept well at all. Im on the couch 24/7 because the bed just isnt working for me to sleep in. Everytime i sleep on it i roll to my side or stomach which is not allowed. So the couch prevents me from doing that. Well after being on it more than a week, im over it. I never liked the couch before and now I especially dislike the couch. My neck and head is constantly sore along with my right leg constantly going to sleep from lack of movement.
I sleep for about two hours then im awake for two-three hours then back asleep. I know im complaining but i feel like everything is falling apart on me.

I am doing my job though, staying down and laying down. I think the hardest thing is actually just laying around. There are so many things i want to do and get up for but know that I cannot so im learning more patience that way. I know its best for the baby and me so I will do whatever it takes. Im being told the lack of sleep is just preparing me for the future which Im ready for.

14 weeks and 5 days...

We had sort of an emergency ultrasound today. I have been on bedrest the last week already due to bleeding. The bleeding is still continuing and throw that in with morning sickness kicking up again as of monday and thats how you get an ultrasound. The ultrasound revealed that i have placenta previa which means the placenta is detaching from the wall. The only way for it to be healed is with bedrest. So im on for two more weeks until i have another ultrasound.

The worst part is hearing "threatened miscarriage" from my doctor. She stated that it may or may not happen. Anytime there is bleeding involved its better to be aware that it could happen. Since im already so emotional these days, that just added to it. Nick and I are praying that the baby continue to grow and that this can begin to heal or reattach. She did say due to the complications that I am having that i am high risk and i will most likely deliver prematurely. A C-section is very possible at this point and she stated most people who have placenta previa have c-sections like 99% of them.

We really could use any and all prayers. I especially am a natural worrier and worry about everything and as much as i appreciate people telling me to relax it doesnt work. I mean how would you feel if you felt like something awful could happen at any moment. The unknown is very scary. By the time i go back to the dr i will have been on bedrest for 3 weeks. I cannot even imagine because ive only been on it for a week and im already going nuts! So if you ever see me around online feel free to talk to me because i guarantee i will be extremely bored!